Month: August 2025

Introduction to the lyrics of Horror Sacri – Beyond the Words

For me, Horror Sacri is more than music – it is a journey along the borderlands of darkness and light. Contrary to my previous albums, these songs are not only built from sound; through their lyrics they open a window into an inner world where the shadows of faith, the abyss of doubt, and the longing for transcendence intertwine.

Each lyric is a mirror, reflecting a different face of the same question: what happens when we confront our own limits, when familiar answers turn hollow, and all that remains is silence, absence, and a thirst for something beyond?

This collection is not meant as an “explanation” of the music, but rather as a companion: an unveiling of the thoughts and images woven into the songs. A second layer, which doesn’t need to be separated from the music – but for those who wish to dwell in the words, new doors may open.

Here, then, are the lyrics of Horror Sacri – as they were written, and as they now take on a life of their own.text

1. Dies Irae

A dark reimagining of the medieval Dies irae hymn, this track strips the original down to its most haunting fragments. With church organ framing the piece, it questions the fear-driven image of divine judgment and hints at something more compassionate beneath the ashes.

2. Impressions… The Black Virgin

A somber reflection on suffering, endurance, and fractured faith — this track reimagines the beatitudes through brokenness yet clings to a fragile hope beyond death. Gothic melancholy meets spiritual defiance.

I wept last night, a child in dream’s embrace,
I mourned where ancient halls had lost their grace.
Stone-bodied trees fought winds in solemn dance,
while you, wild dogs, just laughed and took your chance.

“Blest is the soul that breaks beneath the load,”
the Lord declared, and gently grace bestowed.
“Though pain may blaze with glory’s final breath,
all else is lost, save hope beyond all death.”

So, lift me from the winter drawing near,
shed just one tear before I disappear.
For Lord, no more I am the dead or living –
a symptom now, a shadow barely breathing.

3, Ego mortuus sum

Progressive chaos meets old-school death metal in this wrathful outcry of broken faith. Featuring Fredrik Keith Croona, the track lashes out with despair — but still clings to a final, flickering hope.

One final blink until life gets complete,
until God’s grace destroys my melting meat.
Fermenting in the cesspool of the saints,
I pass away through firmamental drains.

Until my wine starts clotting in my mouth
drowning I dive this quietude throughout.
Candles are lit along my road to death,
out of my mouth I inhale my own breath.

Until I leave my assets far behind
peeling my lifeblood off this mortal mind.
Let loose this fire, enkindle my distress,
let my soul sink in this subversive hex.

One final blink until life gets complete,
laying face-up over the altar sheet.
My facial features under gleaming stars
this fake subsistence one by one disbarks.

4. Messiah of Shrinking Shores

A sorrowful, progressive elegy of abandonment and inner collapse, featuring the haunting vocals of Fati Urbán. Gothic textures meet staccato riffs in this hymn to the forgotten.

He clung with nails of wood so tight,
scratching the fresco-black of night.
Obscured he wrote a gospel’s rhyme,
ashtray of God, clandestine grime.

All that he saw, all fails did stay,
no skyey dew would fall his way,
breathing desert dust-eating life,
rotten finger-flesh, he played a strife.

If he was saved, he tore his crown,
blood-stained tears fall, like storm pour down,
showing his fake gloriole,
he will baptize you, he will bury.

And as he climbed the western sky,
the stars within themselves did die,
“Embrace me now, and take my blood”
said “Let me sink into the flood.”

5. Miserere (Instrumental)

The album’s only instrumental, Miserere merges classical influence with blastbeat-driven intensity — a bridge between past and present, reverence and unrest.

6. Secreta

A prayer for enemies wrapped in eerie orchestration and fractured rhythms. Secreta captures the spiritual dissonance of forgiving when the soul is still bleeding.

7. Soul Hunt

A fierce, apocalyptic track where thrash metal meets liturgical despair. Soul Hunt casts humanity as prey in a cosmic war — a cry for deliverance in a world with no peace.

A star fell blazing, torn from the sky,
ghostfire flickers, years burn dry.
Lunatic echoes are tearing the spheres,
behind steel gates, the enemy appears.

He winks at me with a hollow stare –
a pupil-less gaze, a frozen glare.
“Come with me,” he speaks to me, “behold!
We’ll walk in the void like the gods of the old!”

Bell tolls crash on the lead-gray land,
the last fires go out, lost in the sand.
It’s all over – we fade in the tide,
abandoned island, fortress denied.

Life’s breath is stolen, I drink from the still,
degusting the wine that the ages spill.
Spare me, O Lord, from the hunter’s chase,
grant me, O Father, a night of grace!

The forest echoes from the hunting cries,
dark shadows creep where the lost souls lie.
A soul hunt is raging deep down below,
bloodstained icons weep in woe.

8. Pacem Meam Do Vobis

A solemn, apocalyptic finale where peace arrives through death. Pacem Meam Do Vobis ends the album with sacred words, orchestral weight, and the haunting echo of a final heartbeat — where all is lost but hope.

Many people have asked me what inspired the lyrics of Horror Sacri. Why did I choose this subject? What is my personal story behind the album? It’s not easy to answer briefly, because every line of this record is the trace of deeply personal experiences and a long inner journey. But I will try to explain why this album was born, and why it turned out the way it did.

The traces of a childhood

I grew up in a very strict, deeply religious Catholic family, at a time when Hungary was still under communist rule. Religion was not looked upon favorably in those years; people of faith were often met with suspicion, sometimes even subjected to smaller or greater forms of discrimination. This created a strange duality: on the one hand, it was a closed and sheltered world where there seemed to be ready-made answers for everything; on the other hand, it was a narrow and limiting system, where freedom and questions born of doubt had little or no room to breathe.

As a child, I absorbed this atmosphere completely. Every aspect of daily life was woven through with religious rules: how to behave, what to think, whom to befriend, what to read or listen to. This was the world I grew into, and its patterns left deep marks on me—for better and for worse.

Religion and its distortion

It is important to clarify: I never had a problem with religion itself. Authentic faith—rooted in selfless love, forgiveness, and turning toward the other—remains a value to me even today. What became oppressive was a distorted, simplified, everyday version of religion: something that many live not as faith, but rather as custom and superstition.

The Judeo-Christian tradition speaks of God as pure love, yet it is often infused with a certain “fiscal” logic: God as judge, weighing every deed, holding us accountable in meticulous detail. In everyday life this easily becomes the image of an all-seeing inquisitor: not a loving Heavenly Father, but a merciless examiner who records every small misstep. In this way, faith ceases to be a liberating force for many, and instead turns into a burden heavy with fear and compulsion.

It is not religion itself that breeds this anxiety, but its vulgar, simplified, fear-soaked version, where the place of transcendent reality is too often taken over by superstition, prohibitions, and guilt-inducing messages. This is the kind of everyday religiosity that does not open up the world, but narrows it.

The inner inquisitor

As a child, I lived through all the consequences of this environment. The constant feeling that there was always a rule I hadn’t kept perfectly, or a thought for which I should feel guilty, slowly seeped into me. No matter how hard I tried to comply, I always felt inadequate. And so I became my own inquisitor: a voice within, always whispering self-criticism, always saying, “You are never good enough.”

This experience had a double edge. On the one hand, it gave a certain sense of security—I always knew what I should be doing. On the other, my doubts grew stronger: does anyone—whether a person or an institution—really have the right to regulate every detail of my life with such authority? Do we truly have such certainty about the world that we can lay down unquestionable rules and build entire lives upon them? Or are we all simply groping in the dark, afraid to admit our own uncertainty?

The two faces of Horror Sacri

This duality led me to the medieval concept of Horror Sacri. For me, the term has two faces.

The first is the encounter with the transcendent, when one is confronted with their own weakness before something infinitely greater. This can be a moving, even uplifting experience—a mirror showing us our limits and urging us to rise beyond them.

But the second face is much more personal, and one that unfortunately struck me more deeply: the fear and anxiety instilled in us from early childhood. The learned guilt. The endless compulsion to measure up. The feeling of being watched by a judging gaze that records every misstep—and the realization that I had, in fact, become that gaze myself. And finally, the rebellious defiance: “By what right does anyone do this to me?”

Together, these two faces form the essence of Horror Sacri.

What did I want to say with this album?

I did not want to write theology, nor propaganda. My intention was never to attack faith or religion. What I wanted to offer was a confession: a testimony to the experiences and inner struggles that gave birth to these songs. A reflection on how the decades of my life, the fears instilled in me, and the philosophical and theological doubts that grew ever stronger shaped me into who I am.

For me, art is not about proclaiming grand truths, nor about serving ideologies. In my world, art demands only one thing: honesty. The courage to show, without disguise, what we live through and how we see the world.This is why Horror Sacri was born. This album is my personal confession—about fear, guilt, rebellion, and the search for a path. If even one person who listens to it recognizes themselves in it, and feels a little less alone with these emotions, then it was worth creating.