Lyrics of Loss, Music of Hope

Over the past weeks, I’ve spent countless hours writing, crossing out, rewriting, and listening inward. And now, something important has taken shape: the first full draft of the lyrics for my next album.

Of course, I know they’ll still change as the music takes form—songs have their own way of asking for rhythm, for refrains that stay with you, for silences where words no longer fit. But the foundation is here, and it already stretches across six and a half pages. Honestly, I can’t imagine how much music it will take to carry all of this. What I do know is that this record is going to be huge—not just in scope, but in emotional weight.

At its core, the album is about the deepest human struggle: acceptance and rejection, and how we live through them inside ourselves. Each song marks a step along that path. In a way, it’s like a love story turned inside out—moving from hope to struggle, through despair, anger, disappointment, and sorrow, until it finally arrives at resignation and maybe even reconciliation.

But there’s one thread that never disappears from this journey: love. The voice in these songs keeps on loving, right to the very end. Even when that love is rejected, even when it leads to heartbreak and death, it remains. And this raises the real question: does love hold a universal meaning that can outlast death itself? Is there something in our most human emotions and struggles that is stronger than mortality—something that ultimately justifies life and gives it meaning?

That’s the question I want this album to wrestle with. The story it tells may end in tragedy, but my hope is that the music itself will carry something beyond the darkness—that in the end, there is still light, still a glimpse of hope.

Thank you for walking with me on this journey. These words are only the beginning, and I’m grateful to have you by my side as the music slowly takes shape around them. I’ll be sharing more as the album comes to life—and I hope you’ll stay with me until the very last note.

Why My Music Uses Christian Symbolism

Not long ago someone asked me why my music is so heavily infused with Christian symbolism. It’s an interesting question—because while I don’t consider my work “Christian music” in the strict sense, these images and words appear again and again in my lyrics and concepts.

The truth is simple: like every human being, I’m deeply concerned with the fundamental questions of existence. What is the ultimate purpose of life? What happens when we die? Is there meaning to our fragile time here on Earth?

Every person seeks answers to these questions in their own way, shaped by their worldview, personality, and upbringing. For me, the Christian symbolic world has always felt natural and powerful. It speaks a language I understand instinctively, one that resonates with me both emotionally and intellectually.

I don’t use these symbols to preach, but to express. They are tools to explore the darkness, the light, and everything in between. Through them, I can translate inner struggles and spiritual dynamics into something universal—something that others might recognize in their own lives, even if they come from different backgrounds.

That is why my albums are full of crosses, prayers, angels, and tombs. Not as dogma, but as metaphors. They help me give shape to questions that otherwise would remain silent.

Listening to the Dead

Not long ago I came across a meme that said: “I listen to dead people.” It was meant to be darkly humorous—pointing out that many of the musicians we admire are no longer alive. But the more I thought about it, the less funny it seemed.

Because it’s true.

So many of the voices and hands that shaped my musical world are now silent: Jon Lord, Lemmy, Warrel Dane… and recently, Ozzy Osbourne too. Realizing this makes me painfully aware that I’ve already lived more than half of my life.

And yet, there’s another side to it. Their music is still here. What they created continues to resonate, to inspire, to move me. It has somehow survived them. That thought carries a strange comfort: if I try to fill my life with meaning, if I keep creating, giving, and shaping something of value, then maybe my work can also outlive me.

When I face the darkness and the silence, this becomes a fragile kind of hope—that my life was not meaningless, that I left something behind. It may not be much, but it is something.

And this thought ties directly into what I’m exploring with my next album: the question of whether there is an ultimate purpose to this fragile, fleeting human existence.

What’s Next After Horror Sacri? A Journey Through Love and Loss

It feels a little strange to already be talking about my next album when Horror Sacri has just been released. I know I should be focusing on promotion—sharing reels, videos, and giving this music the attention it deserves. I’ve done some of that (I just submitted Ego Mortuus Sum to SubmitHub), but right now, I find it hard to linger in the past. Horror Sacri has been part of my life for two long years, and though I’m proud of it, I feel the need to move forward.

So let me share a small teaser about what’s coming next.

The concept of the upcoming album is centered around one big question: does love have value in itself? Does it endure even when rejected, unreturned, or left unfulfilled? Can something so fragile still be eternal?

Through the lyrics, I want to explore whether there is any lasting meaning in our short human existence—whether life has an ultimate goal, or if its essence is found in the way we love, even in silence, even without reciprocation.

This won’t be a theatrical storyline, but a cohesive inner journey: the spiritual dynamics of a man facing rejection. His mind and heart shift from hope to denial, from rage to surrender, until he finally reaches acceptance and inner peace. And at the end, he dies—but the love he carried within him doesn’t die with him. It lingers on, as something eternal.

That’s all I can share for now. The rest would be premature—but I hope this glimpse gives you a sense of where my thoughts and music are heading.

Thank you for walking this path with me. It means more than I can ever express.

Back to the routine

How’s everyone doing?

It’s Monday morning and I’m sitting in my office again. During the last few weeks I’ve been on my summer holiday – and it was great! Besides having an amazing time with my wife either at home or trekking in the Bavarian Alps, I dedicated most of my free time to promote my new album. The first feedback is exceptionally good: people seem to like the album and say heartwarming things about the progress I made. This kind of positive feedback always surprises me in the best sense of the word – I spent too much time with writing, recording and polishing this album, and now I’m unable to objectively see its strengths and weaknesses anymore. I suppose the positive feedback is probably due to the maturation of the sound and the inclusion of vocals. It was interesting to see how many people can connect to a song with lyrics rather than to pure instrumental compositions! And to tell the truth, I also feel relieved that finally I could express myself better than before, when I still only used instruments to transmit my feelings and thoughts. While creating instrumentals, I always felt that something was missing – I had to rely exclusively on sounds – now with vocals it’s far easier, far more versatile.

Also, I started writing the new album. Yes, you’ve read it well: I started the preparatory work for a new release, even though the last one was published only a few days ago. This time I plan to utilize a different approach: first I create a concept for the whole album, finalize the lyrics and only then I’ll start writing the music. Next time I’ll tell you more about that.

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The first message on the blog

As some of you were interested in, I decided to start a small blog here, just to give you updates on my daily life.